Apr 14, 2009

Just

I just want my life back. I just want to be happy again. I just want to find joy in the things I used to find joy in. I just want to feel creative again. But I'm tired and I've been worn down. My brain feels slower. I'm sad a lot. I've been crying more often. I don't like this.

3 comments:

Megan said...

Sweetie, I am absolutely saying this with 100% love. It's called withdrawl. Give yourself a minute. Be kind to yourself. It doesn't happen overnight. You will get there, you are too strong not to.

Jason said...

We're right here with you as you go through this, don't forget that.

(The "don't forget that" was intended to be sweet and caring, not a crack about how you're forgetting things more often now.)

(That parenthetical aside was meant to be explanatory and not another swipe.)

(That other parenthetical aside was meant to also be explanatory and not reveal me as a crazy person.)

(I should have stopped writing after the first line.)

(But now I can't stop.)

(This is addicting.)

(Mekka lekka hi mekka hiney ho.)

(I need more sleep.)

Megan said...

Jason, I say this with 100% love. You are a total and complete grammar geek. Step away from the computer, have a nice cup of decaf tea and call us in the morning.

Tracy, I hope you're doing okay.